A bit harder to swallow.

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At the spa, Rarity and I already settled into the hot bath. Even though she insisted on the full treatment we do I told her that all I really wanted was the bath. Finally she agreed to my wishes and settled for a bath.

Once in the hot bubble bath I felt my achy head sort of calm down, and my shivers cease. I was so stressed out from this morning and it was hard to believe this wretched day was still going on. I was sort of glad Rarity came to keep me company but all I wanted to do right now was cry. Cry because I had to go to sleep tonight and face the fact Rainbow was gone and hated me. I lowered my eyes and let myself drift in and out of those thoughts before Rarity's voice jogged me awake.

"So, Darling tell me everything.." she said in a sympathetic voice. I took a breath and told the story. From beginning to end on how I did it and what had happened. About Rainbow Dash yelling at me and her crying and me breaking her heart. And how I felt horrible.

"Well, Fluttershy of course she said all those things to you. You did break her heart, after all." she said to me, shifting a bit in the water. I took a shaky breath, refusing to cry.

"I know and I feel awful that I hurt her, Rarity. I mean..you should have seen her. I've never seen her cry like that before.." I put my hoof to my chest and closed my eyes. "And I did it. I caused pain to the pony who was so important to me.."

I think I confused Rarity for a moment as she went quiet; but began to speak again. "Well...why exactly did you two break up?"

There were so many reasons; deeper than just wanting her to move on. I was beginning to feel like a shell. Like my shyness was holding her back all these months. I felt like I was this nothing compared to Rainbow Dash. She was just too amazing to me. But I didn't want to play psychiatrist with Rarity so I gave her the surface reasons.

"I just didn't want her to feel like I was holding her back..." I rubbed my foreleg. "And I am not attracted to mares. Other mares didn't attract me like she did. I was just afraid that eventually those feelings would leave and I should end it sooner to save us both the heartache."

Rarity gave a small giggle which sort of upset me. I had absolutely no desire to laugh or even smile. I just looked at her.

"Darling those are perfectly good reasons to break up with someone, you know?" she said, lifting her hoof out of the water to make a point. "I mean you can't date someone you wont be attracted to for forever. And eventually those feelings would go away."

Rarity was right. I really did think those feelings would go away. Were they going away right now? I thought so...I thought I was losing attraction for the Rainbow Pony. But even so why did I feel a gaping hole in my chest without her? I decided to ask Rarity.

"Then why do I feel so....so...empty?" I asked her. Rarity smiled and put her hoof on my shoulder.

"It's only natural. I've broken up with many stallions I no longer was attracted to and still felt sad when they were gone." she assured me. It only made me feel worse.

I sighed. "I guess you just..don't know what you have until it's gone." this caused Rarity to move closer to me.

"Now now, dear I know this might be really hard for you. As the days go by you will begin to regret your decision but honey-" she shut her eyes, shaking her head. "A mare does not break up with somepony for no reason. Even if you can't exactly pinpoint the exact cause there is always a hidden instinct telling you that it wouldn't work." she put her hoof to my chest. "And your gut was telling you that it wouldn't."

I looked at Rarity for a long time; feeling that sick feeling again. I wanted to collapse under the water and sob but she was right. I mean, I couldn't have done that for no reason, right? I did it because there was a reason. The reason I gave to Rarity and even myself I could not believe.

"I loved her though, Rarity. I really did. I know I felt love with her."

"Well we all feel love at some point in a relationship. For all you know it was infatuation." she insisted. I rose an eyebrow at that.

"For a year?"

Rarity smirked at me. "Okay..when did you start to have these feelings of...doubt if you will?" she asked. I bit my cheek, thinking of a response to that question.

"I think it was after Winter Wrap up. I saw her utilizing her skills and was the center of attention. That's what she needs. Not some insecure mare nobody.." I mumbled, averting my eyes from Rarity's gaze. She slammed her hoof into the water, splashing me a bit. I squeaked at it when I saw her glaring at me.

"Fluttershy! You are a beautiful pony! You could have any stallion your heart desires! I mean sure you do have some insecurity issues but.." she put her hoof on my cheek and sort of examined me. Rarity knew what was up.

"Darling I have just the solution for you! You know I just got tickets to go see a RedRobin concert and Twilight cancelled. I was wondering if you wanted to go~?" she cooed. I felt a flush go on my face.

"Red...Robin? You mean the one I went to flight school with?"

Rarity gave me a confused look. "Well he is a pegasus. He's the one with a red mane and coal colored coat! You actually know him??"

I shrugged. "Knew. We were in flight school together. Him and Rainbow Dash never got along." Rarity squealed.

"You're telling me you actually know a celebrity?!" she squeed, hopping up and down in the water, making waves. A small smile encroached my face and I nodded.

"I..guess so? I mean I didn't know he was famous." I admitted. I guess I was in the dark with Canterlot's well to do.

Rarity scoffed. "Tsk, I can't even call you a friend anymore, Fluttershy!" she teased. "He's gotten famous overnight with his amazing voice and acrobats he does at his concerts! Oh you simply must go!" she said. I bit my bottom lip, averting my eyes.

"I don't know, Rarity...I mean...what if-"

"No!" she cut me off. "You cannot worry. It's tomorrow night and I want you to sleep over at my house tonight! We'll get you all dolled up and everything! He'll be here in Ponyville for two nights and we're pretty close!" she put her hooves on her cheeks. "What if he notices us?! Notices you! You were one of his former classmates after all!" she gushed.

I giggled. "Well, Rarity it's been so long. And plus, I'm not too....memorable." I admitted. Rarity smiled at me, leaning close.

"Well tomorrow night at the concert we will make you memorable. If not to him than another stallion." she whispered. "Take it from me, get yourself out there as soon as possible!"

"What about rebounds? Those are bad, Rarity..." I said. She chuckled.

"Silly I don't mean a relationship." she winked at me before settling into the bath. "We'll talk more in a bit. I need beauty rest." even though she was already beautiful. I knew exactly what she meant and I thought of a cute stallion giving me a wink or smiling at me or noticing me. Then I got images of other mares or stallions finding Rainbow desirable. Her personality and charm drew everypony in. My excitement turned to fear as I thought of other mares or stallions hugging Rainbow, kissing Rainbow. Or even falling inlove with her.

I felt my body run cold. The idea of Rainbow falling inlove with another pony.

"No, I've come to terms with this..!" I said to myself, shutting my eyes tightly. Okay I came to terms that I couldn't be with her anymore. I did come to terms with that.

Maybe coming to terms with the fact that she might fall inlove with somepony else would be a bit harder to swallow.