======"Never talk to me again!"
Rainbow Dash stormed out of my house after that and out my window I could see her zoom away. When she left that's when I lost my composure and I immediately galloped upstairs to my room and jumped onto my bed, burying my face in my pillow. I squeezed my pillow against me as I sobbed into it.
I ruined everything. I never planned on this happening. I never planned to break up with Rainbow Dash. But I also never planned to fall inlove with her.
Why did she have to be such a wonderful pony? She was my favorite pony of all. And I ruined her. I felt a soft thump next to me and I lifted my eyes up from my pillow to see Angel looking at me, a frown on his face. He must not have known what was happening but he only patted my foreleg in a consoling manner. I sniffled and sat up a bit looking at him.
"Oh Angel..how did I have the stupidity to hurt the most important pony in my life...?" I asked, looking out the window at the dreary overcast sky. He hopped over to me and sat inbetween my legs, nuzzling against my thigh and hugging me. I gave a sad smile and gently pet his head.
"She hates me...she was the only pony in this world that meant more to me than anything and she..hates
me." my sobbing returned as I put my hooves over my face. Angel climbed up onto my shoulder and tapped my face to look at him. He began to do a little dance, as if to tell me something. I smiled at him and nodded.
"You're right, Angel. I was
just trying to protect both of us from further pain. If she thinks we both hurt now..just imagine what it'd be like another year from now, or even another half a year from now.." I said, nibbling on my hoof nervously. He nodded and also began to act another thing out. I smiled at him and picked him up, cradling him in my arms. Tears continued to run down my face and I smiled.
"You're right again. It's for the best, Angel." I closed my eyes and let the tears fall, only this time a small smile crept on my face. "And..and she'll be so much happier. She seems sad now, but..she'll get over it. I will too. I've come to terms with this before she did." I fell silent and Angel gave me an unsure look.
"Didn't I....?" I asked. Angel shook his head and began to act out something. My tears came back and I held him tighter.
"You're right Angel...I'm not as over it as she is. But she'll get over it much quicker than me. She's Rainbow Dash after all...I mean.." I paused, taking a shaky breath. "I mean now she can be in the Wonderbolts and..meet another mare or stallion who wont hurt her like I did..." Angel looked up at me, lowering his ears.
"Oh Angel...what if I made a mistake...?" Angel's face grew sour as he shook his head quickly. I was taken aback.
"What do you mean I can't go back on my decision now...?" I asked. He hopped out of my arms onto my bed and began to act out something crazy. Still, I knew exactly what he meant.
"I...I know. I wouldn't have done it if I didn't think it was the right thing to do.." I rubbed my foreleg and sighed, a sinking feeling in my chest. "She..she's really gone...I know it's what I wanted but....do I...do I really want it..?
" Angel hopped over to me, hitting my hoof. He put his hands on his hips and glared up at me. I nodded and sighed.
"You're right, Angel. I can't have thoughts like that now. I already did it, the damage is done. I just have to move on, don't I?" he nodded sadly, hugging my thigh again. We sat like this for a long time. I let the reality of my decision sink in. That I had broken up with Rainbow Dash. She hated me now and would probably leave Ponyville. And I would never see her again. Those thoughts hit themselves against my head and rang in my ears for so long as we sat there. Every time I had a thought that what I did was wrong, I would suppress it. That got harder and harder as the thoughts of Rainbow Dash making me smile and making me laugh came back to my head.
Eventually, I couldn't take it anymore. I shook myself from that dream as I had woken up a while ago. I hopped out of bed and Angel gave me a confused look. "Angel I can't be in the house anymore. I need to get out. I need to go see my friends or something." Angel glared at me once again and I couldn't help but give a sincere laugh. "Of course you're my friend, silly bunny...but. I need advice from a girl." I looked out the window. "A girl I know has probably broken many hearts before."
I knew who I had to see. I trotted down the stairs out of my house and headed to Carousel Boutique. I wanted to go see Rarity and get her advice.
As I arrived, I gently tapped on her door and lowered my head, waiting for an answer. After a few seconds she opened the door. Her work glasses on and some fabrics draped over her shoulders. "Fluttershy, dear so nice to see..AUGH!" She flinched. I must have looked a mess. My eyes were bloodshot and my hair was probably a bit messy. Before she realized what she did was rude, she composed herself and invited me in.
"Fluttershy, darling..what happened?" she asked, inviting me to sit down next to her. I looked down at the ground before answering. I just got right to the point.
"I...broke up with Rainbow Dash.
" I murmured. I flinched a bit, waiting for a response. Rarity's jaw merely gaped open, in absolute shock.
"Whaaaat? What ever for, Dear?" she asked, trotting over to me and placing an arm around me in a hug. I didn't hug back, but rested my head on her shoulder. I blinked a few tears out of my eyes, getting on her fabric.
"It's a long story." I said. I looked up at her. "Can we discuss this at the spa?"
Her face lit up and she giggled. "Ooh~! You read my mind, sister." she took off her work attire and opened the door for me as we walked out. "Now I want you to tell me every
juicy detail." she said. I didn't want to relive what had happened, because I knew I'd cry about that too. But still, I knew Rarity would be an expert on this subject.
As we walked, Rarity talked about work and rude costumers. I glanced up at the sky occasionally. Looking for a rainbow streak to zoom across it.
The sky stayed as gray as my mood when I didn't even spot a lick of color.