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Whether you like it or not. by Bread-Crumbz Whether you like it or not. by Bread-Crumbz

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These last few days have been sheer and utter hell. And I'm actually putting it nicely. These last three days had been spent either crying for hours and going into a zombie like state. It was even worse when Gilda insisted she be by my side, telling me we needed to get to Canterlot. The first day I refused to move from my bed. I lay there, crying. I threw pillows at Gilda. I begged her to leave but even if she did she would return less than an hour later. It was as if she didn't want me to grieve at all.

The day after my sob fest, Gilda wanted to leave immediately for Canterlot where the Wonderbolts trained and lived. But it seemed I didn't even have the energy to fly. My wings folded in on themselves and I would free fall down to earth. Only to have Gilda swoop down and save me.

Next we tried the train. We had not even made it onto the train before I threw a mini tantrum like a little filly. Every measly scent, every little thing reminded me of her. Of the pony that I devoted my entire life to. I couldn't take it and the large crowd made me almost go insane. I ran away as fast as I could, only to have Gilda on my trail.

Finally we decided to take a carriage to Canterlot. It was a private carriage Gilda herself hired and they arrived to take us there. It was rather small, but it looked very exquisite and cozy. But even than I was having doubts.

"C'mon, Dash." she barked, opening the door to the carriage, inviting me in. I hesitantly stepped toward it, only to look behind me back at Ponyville.

"I don't know. Maybe if I talk to her one more ti-" she immediately cut me off me letting out a loud and short squawk.

"Dash would you just get over it? You need to leave this life, no, leave Sluttershy behind and start a life for yourself now!" I could feel her hard stare looking at me as I kept my head turned away. I was near breaking into tears again as a few escaped my eyes. I let out a shaky breath before turning around and slowly hopping into the carriage. I slid over to the other side and looked out the window, resting my head on the wall. I didn't even want to look at Ponyville disappear as my past life did with it.


We had been traveling almost half the day and the ride was completely quiet. The silence hung in the air like a heavy elephant pushing down on a trampoline. Occasionally I could see her glance at me through my peripherals. I wish she didn't look at me sometimes, it creeped me out. I wanted to at least sleep, or pretend I was asleep. But each time I closed my eyes, I was plagued with images of Fluttershy which twisted my stomach in a knot. When I closed my eyes I could still feel her soft coat against mine. The way her legs draped around me when we hugged. The way she wrapped herself around me as we slept. The way her hair brushed against my muzzle. It caused a few tears to leak out of my eyes and I attempted to wipe them away.

I don't know why I would do that. I don't know why I tried to hide my sadness and tears from Gilda. She had seen me do nothing but cry these last few days. I'm surprised at how patient she had been with me.

In the distance I could see the castle growing closer and closer as we were making our way to Canterlot. The sun was setting and I hadn't even noticed we were travelling all day. Gilda finally spoke up, cutting the silence with a knife. Slowly.

"So I hope you are hungry." she said, clearing her throat. "I booked us a table at the White Stallion. Place is pretty ritzy. You ever hear of it?"

Of course I had. The last time the girls and I went up here Princess Celestia bought us a meal. Fluttershy and I split the angel hair pasta.

"Yeah, I've heard of it." I said. "Since when can you afford that?" I craned my head slowly to her, blinking my tired and sore eyes. I was a bit shocked to see her eagle face staring back at me. Her golden eyes giving off a bit of an eerie glow in the dimly lit carriage.

"Since I am the manager of the Wonderbolts, of course." she said. That same, devious, jack-o-lantern smile contorting on her face. With her glowing eyes it made her a bit intimidating. "I get 70% of the profits." she said matter of factly.

This pissed me off a little. I didn't want most of my hard work to be given to her. Yeah she was the manager, so what? Besides take care of the team, what did she do to earn her all that? Why did she get so much of the cut? "What do you use that money for?" I asked.

She clacked her beak and began to speak. "Well for starters, a place for you guys to stay. I book public meetings, places for you to preform. Physical fitness, uniforms." she pointed out the window and I looked out to see a Billboard with the Wonderbolts on it. "Advertisements."

I looked down at my hooves and the ride remained silent. The rest of the way was spend with the both of us looking out our windows.


Once we arrived in Canterlot, it was just about Twilight out. Various fancy ponies were dolled up. They were all going out on the town. I have to admit that I may have gotten a few looks from them. But I know I wasn't a site for sore eyes that's for sure.

I know my eyes had a glazed over look with bags under them and my coat was very scruffy looking, as well as my mane. I hadn't done my best to take care of myself. Gilda immediately stood next to me, half draping her wing over me as she guided me down the street.

"I hope you're hungry." she said.

"I'm not." I stated. In fact, I hadn't eaten much in the last three days. They were spent with me crying and drinking minimal amounts of water. Every attempt to feed myself even a little bit was met with my stomach clenching up, not allowing anymore food inside of it. The knot had closed it off and I had no appetite once so ever.

I could hear a growl rumbling in her throat. "Well, too bad. You're going to eat. You have to." she said to me.


Once we arrived, we were seated at a booth and we both looked at our menus. I only looked at mine for a minimum of two seconds before setting it down. Gilda looked at me out of the corner of her eye as she scanned hers, deciding on what to get.

She then set her menu down and looked at my wings, picking one of them up with her talons, examining them. I immediately recoiled it, glaring up at her. "What are you doing?" I asked.

She replied calmly. "Examining your wings. I'm trying to figure out why you can't fly with them. You break it or something?" she asked, continuing to examine them, despite the fact they were folded up.

This brought my blood to a boil. "You know damn well why." I hissed under my breath. She looked at me, a bit appalled. Then shrugged.

"Well that doesn't really explain why you can't fly physically. Just in your head. We better get you something to eat that will make your wings work than." she stated. I slammed my hoof on the table, looking up at her.

"Gilda I can't help it. When I am going under stress like this I cannot fly. It's just how I am. You're going to have to deal with it." I said through my teeth.

She scraped her talon against the table, leaving a claw mark as she brought her beaked face down to mine. We glared at each other.

"I think you're the one who has to deal with it, Dweeb!" she said. I kept my gaze on her, listening to what she had to say. "You think she's crying over you like this? You think she's regretting this decision? No. And do you know why? Because she's the lowest form of dweeb and if you honestly think moping will make you feel better you've got another thing coming."

I remained silent, unsure of how to really respond. Was Gilda right? Had Fluttershy really not cared? Not even a little bit...? This only made me more sad, but before I could respond the waitress arrived. She smiled at us, levitating a pad and a pen.

"What can I get for you ladies?" she asked a bit too cheerfully. Gilda cleared her throat, composing herself.

"I'll have the steak. Rare." she said, handing the waitress the menu. Both her and I made a face of a bit of shock. Her order reminded us both that Gilda was very much a predator.

"O-okay..and what about you?" she asked me. I shook my head.

"Nothing." I was about to hand her my menu when Gilda slammed her talon onto it, keeping it on the table.

"She'll have the strawberry banana smoothie, with a shot of wheat grass." she told the waitress. The nice unicorn smiled and wrote down our meals before trotting off.

It was silent for a few moments before I turned to her, narrowing my tired eyes at the griffin. "Do not take my order for me."

"You needed something." she said, looking straight ahead. I wanted to punch her but instead she seemed to go quiet like me. So I sat back, enjoying the silence.

I looked over to Gilda and saw her give me a smile. She tried to make it seem less threatening, but that crooked grin was still there. "Just try to drink the smoothie and once you finish that I'll take you to your room. You'll like it, I promise." she said to me. This was the nicest thing she had said to me within these last few days. I merely nodded tiredly, wanting to just go to bed now. I needed to let a cry out but I knew I couldn't here.

Once our food arrived, the unicorn set the plate of meat down at Gilda. She handed me my smoothie and immediately trotted off. She didn't want to see Gilda eat the steak.

I watched her animal side kick in as she was presented with the food. Her eyes got a crazy look in them as she tilted her head back and fourth. Gilda leaned down to sniff the meat before scooping it up with the bottom of her beak. Like a shovel. With it in her mouth she tilted her head back and gulped down the entire thing. I almost gagged. How could she eat that? I turned away from the grotesque scene and looked at my smoothie. It did look really good. I leaned forward to take a small sip and even with the viscus liquid hitting my mouth, my stomach clenched up.

I sighed, leaning back in the booth. Gilda draped a wing over me and took my smoothie, taking a large sip from it. I envied her appetite at the moment.

"You know, Dash, I know you're pretty bummed now." she said. I rolled my eyes. Bummed doesn't even come close to describing the pain I felt. "But you're gonna get used to it." she took another sip, before looking at me. "Whether you like it or not."

I slowly turned my head toward her, raising an eyebrow. Was that a threat? I sighed, lowering my eyes. What choice did I have? I mean, Fluttershy obviously didn't care if I went or stayed. She hated me now. She wasn't in love with me anymore and she never would be again. Even thinking that didn't sit well with me as I was ready to just leave.

I waited for Gilda to finish her meal, allowing myself to drift into my own thoughts of Fluttershy and I. The more I thought of the reality, the more I tried to shove it away. I couldn't accept this. I just couldn't. I would never be able to accept it. I brought my elbows to the table and rested my head on my hooves, letting my tired and cried out eyes droop as I anticipated just leaving and plopping into a warm bed to cry myself to sleep in.
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zippitey2 Featured By Owner Jul 22, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
the I in an art museum? the piece is amazing
Morris4480 Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2014
I actually like Gilda in this fic, she is a lot nicer than I thought...also, lol to 'sluttershy' :3 I mean, no, I'm not cold hearted and yes feel bad for RD and FS but rainbow needs to show a bit more respect to Gilda  
Cityofbones0 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014
Oh [i]HELL[/i] no, bi-ach.
I sincerely hope Gilda gets the fuck beaten out of her, by none other than Fluttershy.
And RedRobin by Dashie.
But then she seems kind of concerned for Dash towards the end, whether its so she can make money off of her or not.
I'm conflicted with my hatred towards RedRobin and Gilda.

The fact that you're making me angry at characters is a sign of excellent authoring skill. Seriously, well done. I blame you for this terribly written comment, and all others I'll probably post.

Good lord, I feel like a loon for typing like this, but I don't have the patience to write coherently. I must read moar.
landro117 Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2013
that pic let me tihink to star wars :)
SlyTheWolf Featured By Owner May 19, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Does Gilda fancy Dash?
monicaponylover Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2012
is that pony meat
PancakeTurtle Featured By Owner Nov 15, 2012  Student Artist
Who is narrating?
PancakeTurtle Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Student Artist
nevr mind
Nokiea Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2012
Oh come on, SLUTTERshy?!
foxesgoquack Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2012
This story is making me hate Gilda a lot less, surprisingly. :3
bbb35 Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2012
Ahhh!! That Gilda is AWFUL!!
friendofvampires Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
chaos, Rd looks like she needs some hard cider
BritSpearsArmpit Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm curious to see exactly what Gilda's motive is in all of this.
RaenBoow Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Been there, done nothing :thumbsup: (the :thumbsup: was for a nice portration of it)
Vessel42 Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2012
This is... absolutely heartbreaking. T_T
Baffelball Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
The more you write, the more I hate you(not really). Both of them are sad! Y u no make them happy? I really do love your style of writing though, and of course your art. I just hope there is a happy ending!
Limixi Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012
Moar please! I can't stand waiting what will happen next. But please don't make a bad end!!!! :[
Uke-Gurl Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
I've been kind of keeping up with this on and off. Mostly because I love that you integrate art and story together. That's where great artist come from is telling a story through a picture.

I love the art, and the story has some pretty neat points as well. However, I feel like there is one issue that really gets to me. I am a little sad that Fluttershy keeps stating that she doesn't like "mares". Sexuality to me isn't something you can just change at random even when you love someone. I feel like there's nothing wrong with her being bisexual, considering that would most likely fit the character better anyway. But it's confusing to me that she keeps trying to make the point that she just doesn't like other women. I guess that's my only grip.

Other than that, I love how you combined art and literature. You do it pretty well, and your art is amazing.
Imp0s5ible Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
She could be homoromantic/biromantic/panromantic and heterosexual or asexual. I mean, it is possible to be in love with someone without having sexual desire for them.
Uke-Gurl Featured By Owner Sep 26, 2012  Hobbyist Filmographer
Right... and you make a good point, but she clearly had sex with her and enjoyed it. Pan sexuality would be another possibility for her, but it is pretty obvious through the story that she is sexual and not just in it for the romance. I guess again that's what bothers me. It would one thing if she loved RD and had no physically contact with her, but it's another thing entirely that she was sexual with her a couple of times.

But again those are good points, thanks for responding to me.
shilvicthehedgehog Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2012  Student Artist
This is just sad:(
easyridin Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
this sounds like a good story to read. i cant help but notice though that most of the help from good friends is being given out to Shy. is Dash going to get some help from a real friend? i have to ask where everyone was at for Dash when the breakup was found out?
Thejboy88 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
Crying herself to sleep. This story just gets more and more depressing.
tallon567 Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
i have a suggestion for rhe end of the story:
Gilda dies a painful death
The end :3
Baffelball Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Cupcakes any one?...
tallon567 Featured By Owner Sep 18, 2012
Sounds delicious >:)
Brony4 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012
Thank you for reminding me why I hate Gilda.
GarethJason Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012
I feel so bad for rainbow... I wish gilda wasn't such a bitch, she pisses me off... but hey its a good story! I Can't wait for next chapter!
DolphinBuster Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Sluttershy...har har. This was a nice chapter. Well, not nice mood wise, but it was well written as usual! If your trying to make the characters as their canon self, your hitting them spot on. I love the way your write Gilda; She's being cruel and jerkish, but at the same time she's trying to help Dash.

Can't wait for the next chapter. :iconpinkiesmileplz:
zaiali Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012
I still don't like the reason of why they broke up, it wasn't really . . . dramatic enough to actually get them to break up.
asluc96 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Another well done job, another deep moment...that's what I most like from this fic, for me it makes a ship fic even more interesting :nod:
Looking forward to what happens next! and glad to see Rainbow's side of the story again :)
shadowrain1000 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012
I love how Gilda is trying a 'tough love' approach, even if it isn't working. It really fits her character. Still, I find it a bit odd that RD would just leave. Did she say goodbye to any of her other friends, like Twilight and AJ? Don't they care that she's gone? For the Element of Loyalty, it seems a little OOC.
Scuashman Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Im in love with this <3 keep up the good work, im loving it! x3
cutetoboe Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Digital Artist
My gosh.. I hope rainbow gets better soon so I can glomp her. ; ;
Droso Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Poor Dashie! It's a deep hole she's falling down and the bottom is a far ways off yet. Your symbolism for putting across Dashie's despair at the loss of Fluttershy is wonderful, it really brings it home without outright saying it too much.

It's kinda strange, but I can somewhat see how Gilda is trying (in her own way) to get Dashie out of this funk. Really proves that Gilda does indeed have a heart! From what I've seen though it's a hit or miss strategy, and she's been mainly missing so far. I can't wait to read more!
Bread-Crumbz Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Wow thanks! I'm glad you're seeing that :> Gilda isn't as bitchy as she comes off to be here. ^^
Darthsylar12 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This is simply amazing. I love the way you write Gilda, that right mix of jerk and actually trying to get Rainbow ready for the Wonderbolts. Your art really does capture the sadness and pain Rainbow is in. I also love your descriptions, the best being "Her order reminded us both that Gilda was very much a predator." Just perfectly captures the danger that lurks beneath Gilda's feathers. I love this story and I eagerly await the next part.
Bread-Crumbz Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Digital Artist
:,3 thanks so much! I'm glad you're enjoying it. Always love feedback!
Deelfinoiy Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I love how you make each character as canon as possible, down to their style of speaking and the words or phrases they use. :)

Also, "Once we arrived in Canterlot, it was just about Twilight out." Twilight should be lowercase in this case. :)
Bread-Crumbz Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Hehe yeah you're right. Thinking of sparkle! XD
NintendoGal55 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You know, I sometimes am so wrapped up in the story that I often forget to comment on the actual artwork. And for that, I do apologize. I really like your style with this! :3 The painting look really comes out nicely and everyone looks exactly as they do with your own kind of flare to it. And they look wonderful!

Here, wow. Rainbow Dash looks AWFUL. Not artistically, it's well-drawn! But you can just see the stress and sorrow in her face and in her eyes. D: The poor thing. If only Fluttershy could just see the extent of her mistake. It really does come off like she doesn't care, doesn't it? It's not that, it's that she's unaware.

Poor thing, she's so broken. D': And given the beginning, well, it looks like even two years later, she's still heartbroken. So yes, it still stands that I sympathize a lot more with Rainbow Dash right now. :<

Gilda...well, I can't say I hate her, I know what she's trying to do and she's doing it in her way, but she seriously needs to work on her approach to things. XD But I guess I can't fault her for working to get Rainbow back on her hooves, at least there's that, and there does seem to be an underlying (if not ulterior...) sincerity with it.

Well done, as always!
Bread-Crumbz Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Hehe I understand, I get that way too! I'm really glad you're enjoying this so far! Well in between a few more things happen that sort of rock both Fluttershy and Rainbow Dash! It will get pretty intense :,3 thanks so much! Love seeing your comments :heart:
Baffelball Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You've said something like this before, how far are we into this story?
NintendoGal55 Featured By Owner Sep 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I guess we all do! And you're very welcome! :hug: Always!

:'3 I guess it will! We shall be along the journey, then!
ComposerOfMoonlight Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Good job, Krumbz! Your grammar and spelling were much better this time, though I will admit the content was a little less emotional as the last entry. Strangely, I got the vibe that Dashie was being a little over-dramatic in this episode and not the Dashie I usually pity and side with constantly. She's just not getting mad enough, and it seems she has accepted Gilda at least in part. It started out good though, and I especially liked the details about Dashie remembering the way that Fluttershy held her. That was pretty sweet.
xles Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Poor Dashie...

Possible error:
"Well that doesn't really explain why you can't fly physically. Just in your head. We better get you something to eat that will make your wings work than." she stated.
Shouldn't that 'than' be a 'then', rather?
kildeez Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2012
NNNGGHHH! Can't take it anymore! Do RD and FS stop acting retarded and get back together or what!?
starrywish Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Is it wrong to say that I LOVE GIlda in this? xDD

Also what brush did you use? it seems to be a square one but, when I go to a similar brush on MINE it has that brush texture on it.
angelslight296 Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2012
now. as ive stated, i hate gilda, with a burning passion, but in reading this i realized something. i hate red robin way more than gilda? that is most likely because he is trying to take our dearest fluttershy away from rainbow dash ((yes i know they are broken up but you get my drift)) in this chapter, i felt at least, that gilda was trying to get rainbow dash to snap out of it, yes she was intemidating, creepy, mean, and brutish, but she was genuianly trying to help rainbow i think. i know i end all my comments with this but yet another good chapter crumbs. i would probibly pay for this as a book if i had money...wait...please dont make this pay only (whimper) FORGET IS AID ANYTHING ABOUT MONEY! ~adorning fan~
Basalisk120 Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2012
Yeah, but you've gotta think - Gilda's really acting like she has some sort of secret agenda. Honestly, I'm finding it pretty hard to trust her.
Also, if Robin messes Fluttershy around, she gets everything she deserves.
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